Thursday, February 10, 2011

Worn Down




While these pictures are totally unrelated to the post below, I just love them.  My two favorite little loves on the planet giving sister kisses.  I can't tell you how much I love these two.  Actually maybe it's not unrelated... these pictures remind me of why we do what we do as mothers--because we love the snot out of these little boogers, that's why.  

I've been really busy this week... mostly, in a good way.  We've had lots of get-togethers with friends and moms and that's been great at keeping those winter blahs away.  But it's also been a busy week in another way.... that little Lamp of mine is wearing me down.  Long story short, the whole g-tube surgery didn't really work out like we had hoped.  Her stomach is still super duper small which means she wants me to feed her small amounts of food, all the time.  ALL. THE. TIME.  She's been this way for a while and we've been holding on and holding out for things to change but it's hasn't really happened.  And while I think I've done a pretty good job of just trudging along and making the best of it I can finally say that after 7 months of feeding my baby with the frequency of a famished newborn I'm tired.  There I said it...I'm tired.  The good news is that since she does have a feeding tube we are going to start using that feeding tube to actually feed her.  (For those who are just joining us Lampy has a small stomach that was folded up a little and so the Dr's decided to open her stomach up by using a g-tube to help tack it in place.  So the g-tube was never meant to actually feed her, but now it looks like we'll be using it for that afterall.  If that's a confusing explanation you can read more about it here.)  Next week we're being admitted to the hospital where Lamp will get a fancy new pump that will feed her during the night.  I'll get some training on how to use this pump and once we make sure all is well we'll bring that pump home (with Lamp of course) and give it a whirl.  I'm really, really hoping this gives us a little break from the feeding insanity. So if the posting is a little light (or scattered and random) these next couple of weeks you'll know why.  

OK so I'm going to bed now.  Did I mention I'm tired?    



15 comments:

  1. wishing lots of rest on you :) love the beautiful pics

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  2. good luck with everything!

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  3. They are so sweet! Good luck! Emma

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  4. Miggs, the pump is so easy to use. I promise, you'll hve it down in a matter of days. I really hope it relieves you a little!

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  5. nothin' but a g-thing, baby.

    hang in there champ.

    dear lampy stomach,

    GROW!!!!

    love, all of us.

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  6. Good luck with everything. My first baby seemed to always be hungry and I remember how tiring that was. Hang in there. I hope the g tube feedings give you some relief. Your girls are just the sweetest!

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  7. So sorry! I know that for me, sleeplessness is my Achilles heel. It always sends me into a depression. I hope the pump thing works and you get a break!

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  8. Endearing pictures! I miss little ones. This is getting you ready for your move so Lampy can say "Don't mess with Texas"

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  9. Linda P.9:55 PM

    Miggy, bless your sweet and weary heart. I pray that that pump will work wonders and give you and little Lamp some relief. Hugs.

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  10. I am glad there is a solution on the horizon and that you'll be able to get some relief soon.

    The pictures of your girls are truly precious. Sister kisses?! They're killin me.

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  11. Hoping the g-tube helps out a ton with the feeding and you can get some sleep!.

    Precious girls. They are both gorgeous!

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  12. Hang in there and remember we are around if you need a break!

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  13. Girl -- thinking of you and Lamp tonight. Actually, I was thinking of you any way because I made my first Etsy purchase. You'd be proud. Really cute baby booties for a friend here whose baby's story combines yours and mine. Love those girls of yours. Hope to talk to you soon.

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  14. PS -- my bro was on a similar pump WAY back in the day. I remember distinctly the sound shift it made when it was done...

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  15. My daughter is on a feeding pump for 12 hours a night. I think you will find that it makes your life much easier once you get used to it. :)

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