Wednesday, June 30, 2010

I'm Done

I'm thinking of scrapping our current name choice for Lamp in favor of Murphy... middle name Slaw.  {I really hope you get that cuz I'm in no mood to explain....}  All cutesiness aside this is getting ridiculous and I'm over it.  We have a c-section date.  I won't share the actual date with the entire internet, but I'll just tell you it's soon.  Very soon.  All we had to do was get to that date.  Of course with this baby/pregnancy something has to go wrong.  Last night I was up all night yacking my brains out.  Barfing.  Throwing up.  All night.  Throwing up when your not pregnant is no fun.  Throwing up when your pregnant is even less fun....so let's see, that's no fun plus less fun.... I don't know, you do the math.  I made it until morning when B once again had to scrap work and take me to the hospital to hook me up on an IV to get re-hydrated.  We just got home and I'm exhausted.  Mentally and physically.  This pregnancy is doing me in.  I've tried to be really positive throughout everything, but there comes a point... I think I'm reaching that point.  {I didn't even tell you about last weeks trip to the hospital doubled over in pain with sudden strong contractions only to have it turn out to be essentially nothing....good times.}  Yeah I'm kinda having a pity party here, but I don't know what else to say. 

Anyway, that's the latest.  I've got to go lay down.  

9 comments:

  1. good lucky girl! we are all cheering you on. you are one of the toughest girls i know! xoxoxoxo

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  2. I don't blame you. This must be so hard for you. High risk pregnancy is hard, and it's different for every body but hard no matter what. It sucks to worry, it sucks to be stressed and it sucks to go to the hospital so much. And how have you been doing that all AND caring for the child you already have? What I'm getting at, is that you've done a great job, even if youdont feel like you have. You really have. A lot of people wouldn't have given lamp a chance to live, and you are going above and beyond to welcome her into the world safely and to be loved unconditionally.

    I hope everything goes as well as possible for you with the delivery. I hope you hold her and kiss her and feelthat all this hard stuff (and the future hard stuff) will be worth it. Go miggy! You're my favorite.

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  3. Good luck you sweetheart.

    Hope you get some rest.

    I know this won't make it any easier, but maybe put a smile of your face.

    Look what just popped up on my reader.

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  4. Dang! That's a bummer. Hang in there. Anytime I see a new post from you I wonder if something big is happening! I'm rooting for you guys. Thanks for keeping us updated.

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  5. It seems so unfair that you should be dealing with sickness and rehydration and bed rest on top of everything else. I know, I know. Life isn't fair. But still.

    I know that the challenges won't end with delivery, but I still hope that the safe arrival of Lamp brings you joy and comfort.

    Crossing my fingers that you make it to the C-section date without any further unpleasantness!

    Love and prayers!

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  6. Thinking of you and wishing you a delightful delivery. And by the way, I'm also struggling with wondering if I have what it takes. I think Heavenly Father knows I (and you) do. Love you!

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  7. Murphy Slaw couldn't be more fitting. I hope the pendulum swings the other way very soon!

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  8. I keep checking to see if you've had your baby yet! I hope that all goes well and that the next time you are in the hospital will be a planned occasion and you'll have a healthy baby in your arms when you leave! No more barfing. :(

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  9. Murphy Slaw! Ha!

    Ummm, I check in on your blog occasionally and saw you asked about C-sections. Triggered an auto response in me because my C-section was a big deal to me. My first was a C-section and second VBAC. The recoveries were very different in many ways but the same in some...bleeding with both, for instance. And being completely hormonal and bluesy and offended by the nurses, too--both times. Nurses might be a little more inclined to bug you after a C-section, but if you don't feel like being bugged, just put a sign on the door! It works. Just make sure you have enough pain meds, and someone nearby to pick up the baby when she cries, if she is in the room with you.

    Probably one big thing I remember is: if you have practiced "labor breathing" and relaxation techniques in the past, use those for your first bowel movement. So not kidding!!

    Also--make sure the surgeon does a good job with strong little stitches sewing your uterus back up. The better job he does there, the safer your VBAC. And that's the other thing--it's no longer "once a C-section, always a C-section." So if you have more babies, VBACs are safe! Not all doctors are supportive of them but many are.

    I was sad about my son no longer being an only child, but my relationship with him now is actually much stronger than it ever was. I am able to make time for each of my kids, which I cherish, and it's a beautiful thing to have two.

    Good luck. What a special time for you. I hope it wasn't too weird to get such personal advice from a stranger! I'm friends with Katie McB so maybe that means we're not total strangers??

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